I still have a lot of anger towards you but it is getting better. My one complaint about living here has been making good friends, and now that I finally have some you are taking that away from me. Raven invited me to the Halloween party as I am closer friends with her and everyone who hangs there (Susy, Alsia, etc) than you are, and you are taking that from me now. I don't want to have anything to do with Chelsea and I don't want to make it uncomfortable for everyone else, so I am taking myself out of that situation. Anyone else would have guessed that I would have gone just to make a show as to how strong I am and all that horseshit, but I don't want to even meet that cunt. She is NO friend of mine. But make no doubt about it, I am angry. I am damned angry.

Part of me misses you so much I could cry, and part of me realizes how controlling you really can be, even though in your eyes you are being supportive. There is a fine line there somewhere.